It’s Cold In Florida

 This is a three part collection 

On heartbreak, abuse, and the slow

Brutal act of moving forward. 

These are apologies i never gave, 

prayers no one answered, 

and the wars i still fight in silence

There is no comfort here 

No neat ending 

I’m writing from the middle of the storm. 


Letters to Someone Who Used to Love Me 

These are words left unsaid, 

Apologies i never got to say, 

And a confession of selfishness and ignorance 

To the only man I’ve ever loved. 

Enjoy my word vomit. 

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